We have kind of had a rough few days...I know so much has to be due to this crazy weather. Everyone's allergies are just going CRAZY! Bobby started out with a fever last Weds night and then acted fine on ThursDAY then fever again all evening and then again better on Friday.But then the snot made its way down into this chest and a terrible cough ensued. We had a weekend full of plans, nothing major just get togethers with friends and a birthday party, but enough that I nervous every day that he wasn't 100% that we should just cancel everything. But he seems to be FEELING better. So theres the question...where is the line? Do you stop life and keep the child home to rest when you know he's trying to recover...or do resume normal activities assuming that their actions will tell the story of how they feel? I mean as long as they aren't burning a fever you have to almost move on, there is no telling how long a cough will last! On the side note though, I did let Bobby stay home from school on Monday to get some extra rest and try and complete his recovery. Jade on the other hand has been a trooper...there were a few questionable moments where I would get terrified that she was coming down with a bug also...but thank the lord above (knock on wood) so far so good. And the great news is that I think we may have finally kicked thrush! 

Eating her ba-ba at grandma's house...

So have I mentioned how hard I have been working out? The second I got the ok from the doctor at the 6 week mark from having Jade I started exercising. I ran at first but my knees were just killing me! So I switched it up to some workout DVD's. Jillian Michaels to be specific. I have stuck with it every since. I am talking working out 4 or 5 times a week. Its been alot of work but its paying off. I still mix in running at the park behind my office on my lunch hour every once in a while but for the most part I can contribute most of my weight loss to Jillian. I started back to work at a weight plateau (where my body naturally stopped losing from the baby) and since then (Aug 1st) I have lost 15 more lbs. I have an additional 10 left to get back to pre-pregnancy weight. But I am feeling close to normal these days. I do have to say though, my body is different this time of round. After Bobby it resumed normal position without much trouble. But this time I have formed some trouble spots that I have never had issues with before! Oh well, that keeps me focused...onward we go!

This weekend we have family pictures scheduled...boy this certainly can become a chore. Planning outfits, thinking up a vision, a location, a time...it has to just all fall in place. This year is especially important beacause we have our newest addition of Jaden, so the pressure is on even thicker than usual so I can hopefully get one I am happy enough with that I can order a big mantle size picture with the four of us. This tradition of family pictures is something I have kept up since Bobby was born and I am obsessed with taking one every fall to be able to look back and see our family grow. Can you imagine being to pull out all 18 Christmas cards from our children's youth and see what we looked like from year to year? I can't wait...

Is this week over yet?!

Boy, its been a long one for me. We had some unexpected relatives in town the first part of the week, a makeup soccer game on a work night, and a certain little lady in our house has been keeping me up at night. I honestly don't know what has gotten in to her. Usually she is on her schedule by the clock (without any encouragement...she just likes her routine)...but lately getting her to bed has been difficult AND she isn't always quick to go BACK to sleep in the night (that has NEVER been an issue before). To make matters worse, yesterday she started getting a snotty nose and watery eyes too! This is our 3rd runny nose since she was born. We have yet to have to do any doctoring for it...but I still HATE it cause I worry about her breathing etc. Not to mention we still have the thrush! It isn't budging!! And just to top it all off, a mysterious bug bite on my forearm is RED and swollen like a spider bite or something. WHAT IS THAT ABOUT?!

So speaking of soccer...I am afraid we might give up on it. Bobby just does NOT like it. He literally STANDS there on the field while all the other kids chase the ball. No amount of bribing, encouragement, or energy-inducing-candy has made a difference. I kept hoping the more we went, the more comfortable he would become with the idea of it all. But no such luck. I don't know if it's just "soccer" that doesn't interest him, whether he just doesn't like the confrontation of fighting with the other kids for the ball, if he isn't going to like sports at all?, or whether he is just too young to care at this point and we should just try again next year? But the main point is...he doesn't like it...he will flat out say that. So I feel guilty even putting him through the misery of standing out there getting yelled at to "GET THE BALL" for an hour two times a week. Even Robby (the most competitive sports nut of them all) just doesn't feel right about the situation. It's funny how almost ALL situations are different than how you imagined them when it's YOUR child. I am sure in his mind he thought he would be so tough with his son, and MAKE him like sports cause that's what boys do. BUT when its your beautiful little boy's eyes looking back at you and you can SEE that his heart isn't in it...NONE of that matters anymore. and the words "whatever you want to do is fine Bobby" comes pouring out of your mouth.

Weekend update

Weekend was good. BUSY. Between soccer practice and games, the weather changing, a birthday party, grocery shopping and the OU game...I was exhausted and didn't even leave the house yesterday! Of course, there is still cooking to do, laundry to fold, packing backpack/lunchbag/diaper bag. So no day is completely for rest...but it was a pleasant weekend over all. Bobby was full of beans as usual, and wants everyone to "go to his room and build New York City skyscrapers" with him (with his building blocks). He got in trouble numerous times this weekend for shooting his nerf gun at naughty things (Coco, daddy etc.), drove his tractor for hours (hauling Coco in the trailor/wagon he has attached to the back), and got to go mowing with daddy, hopefully for the final time this season. Jaden decided she wanted to change up her whole sleeping schedule randomly this weekend...so I was up at least twice a night every night instead of her usual 3am feeding. But her smiles and giggles sure make up for it. I don't know if she is going through a growth spur or what...but it didn't seem any different during the day. At least the thrush hasn't seemed to bother her. She still has white patches in her mouth but I am not sure when to expect for it to be gone? We both seem to feel fine? She started rolling from back to belly on Sunday morning, and now you can't keep her on her back! Makes me nervous even on the changing table! Of course she gets stuck on her belly and and starts grunting till you come help...but none the less I think she is very excited of her newest trick. ADORABLE!

I finally got my wedding ring on this morning...still pretty tight! But I hopes that when these last 12 lbs come off I will be able to wear it comfortably...otherwise I am just going to have to bite the bullet and get them resized. I don't remember having this much trouble getting my rings back on after Bobby!

Did anyone else LOVE getting to have their windows open all weekend?! Not to mention first FIRE of the season! I LOVE FALL!

UGHH does anyone know why i can get my paragraph breaks to work? sorry for that massively long randomly paragraph in the last one!!!

Yesterday we had Jaden's 4mth month check up. Things went pretty well...she's is growing fast weighing in at 15 lbs 2.5 oz (90%) and 26 inches long (95%) her head was 75%. Only bad news is that doctor mentioned it looked like she has a slight case of thrush. UH oh...my first thought is well, it can't be that bad considering neither of us were suffering from it. She seems to eat normally and I haven't been in any pain. So out the door we went to fill the prescription for a drop of medicine in each of her cheeks four times and day and a cream for me. As we got home and I tried not to stress too much about it all...and then about that time Bobby says mommy, look at this and lifts up his shirt to show a big rash on his chest. Keep in mind we JUST LEFT the doctor's office. WHY does this happen? If he had JUST shown me 30 mins ago I could have asked right then! I quickly panic'd silently and text his teacher to see if he had eaten anything out of the ordinary that day...but of course he hadn't. Again, I tried not stress to much but as the evening wore on I noticed him scratching at it...so I decided to inquire my good friend Nicole. Nicole is a pediatrician and although she promises not to care...I do my best to not pester her with constant questions. I am sure she would enjoy a break when she gets home, ya know? But being the kind, patient friend that she is...she never lets it show if she is getting annoyed. Thank you again Nicole. Anyway back to the story...after a short chat about what all the things it could be I decide he isn't going to die and we put a cream on it and moved on. Bobby's teacher text me today and said he hasn't been scratching...so lets hope for the best. So after all the "not" stressing over ailments from my children that I accomplished over the evening...I found myself feeling still overwhelmed at the end of the night. I have to say adding a second child to our routine has been a million times easier that going from zero to one...but there are still nights when I find myself upset that I didn't feel like I got quality time with either child. Just back and forth and dinner, and messes...and before you know the night is over and I find myself wondering if they ever felt connected to me...or whether I was just going through the motions. This very issue has been the one thing that has haunted me these last four months...but I am determined to talk myself out of it everytime. I KNOW that its harder with two kids...and doing the best I can is ALL I can do. Today is a new day and I just need to try and make it better than the last. You know? In other news, work is going well. If anyone noticed that I dropped off the face of the planet the last year or so...that was a direct result of an OVERWHELMING job in Finance that I took at work. I thought it was something I wanted and although I don't regret the experience I gained there at all, I am much happier to be back to accounting, my first love. I know, I know boring to most...but it works for me. It makes sense. And last but not least...I finally ordered both kid's halloween costumes. Bobby was easy...he picked out a teenage mutant ninja turtle costume. CUTE. And as I struggled to figure out what struck my fancy for Jade, I made the mistake of asking Bobby. A "unicorn" mommy..."a purple unicorn". SAY WHAT?!? Where does he come up with these things? ohhh hmmm Bobby that IS a good idea. I guess I will look around?! I tried, I really did. I googled all sorts of stores that carried unicorn costumes but in the end a Ladybug costume from Carters on sale with a 15% off coupon on top finally won me over. I played it off well though...just leaving the ladybug costume on the ipad randomly while Bobby was near...and then acting so sly I say to Bobby OH LOOK at this ADORABLE Ladybug costume! You think we should get this for Jade? Would she look so CUTE in that?! "Ohh YES mommy I LOVE that!" SCORE! it worked!! until...the next thing out of his mouth was..."and I want to be a caterpillar to go with her". UGHHHHH here we go again...why do I even give the child an option again? I should have just made the choice like a GROWN woman and moved on. BUT its just SOO cute that he has an opinion! So for now we are going to stick with what we have got...but if the turtle costume comes and he isn't going for it...the caterpillar costume hunt will begin. Ohhh the things we do for these children!